Time to say farewell.

29 10 2017

Time to say goodbye.

An end to mark a new beginning.

New adventures, along with new challenges.

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Farewell 2015, it was good while it lasted.

31 12 2015


Everyday we face it, we experience it and we deal with it.
Yet, who knew that it can also bring with it so many other issues.
Like say, eczema and cramps, or whatnot.
Still something I’m learning to deal with and not get overwhelmed by each time.
But aren’t we all?

Many not so great experiences this year but I believe that we’ll get through it.
With support and love, we’ll overcome it together.
To 2016 – a healthier and better us.
Through effort and perseverance, we’ll come out stronger.

A year where I took a leap, further than previously and braver a step than I thought I would ever take.
The memories created, the experiences I’ve gone through and the values instilled – all something that cannot be described and can only be understood after you’ve gone through it yourself. Solo tripping is something we should try at least once in our lives.

A learning journey every step of the way, the ups and downs, successes and failures.

Try our best, that’s what we’ll do everyday.

Memories etched forever in that heart that keeps beating, working hard every millisecond – that’s how I’ll strive to be. 

To appreciate what you have now, what you had in the past and be grateful for being able to have a tomorrow and a future. 

We never know when life will give our bucket a kick, so living it to the fullest each day with whatever our individual priorities are is what the new year should be like. 

True Colours

10 08 2015

Through time, 

Will we be able see one’s true colours.
To understand one’s past and what they’ve experienced to be who they are today.

To realise the truth behind why things work the way they do.

To unveil the hierarchy of existing norms that won’t be easily changed.

To grow and learn about life and our roles in it, with no option to turn back.

To find out that everyone has their own story, which underneath that smile, is an untold story you’ll never know.

Through experience,

Will we learn that people are different – in personalities, in worldview, in behaviour.

That we are not all the same and we cannot expect that to be so.

That we need to learn to accept the differences, and that to find someone not your family to be accepting of all of you is difficult and should be treasured when found.

That we will need to let go – of some of our past, our relations and our thoughts.

That there will be times when we reflect back, and we miss parts of our past, or people who had been in our lives, but we learn to continue on with the past remaining where it should be – as our memories.

That we will never be perfect, nor anyone else will ever be. 

That we can only strive to be the best version of being good as we understand it to be.

That through it all, family is the one to hold closest to.

That those dearest to us, whether going through ups or downs, learning our rights and wrongs, we grow together.

Reflective Solitude – My May Day Change

2 05 2015


When I read this article on why it’s important to get away, it hit me hard. While going through our daily motions, it’s so easy to go with the flow that I stopped thinking, reflecting, and planning for what’s ahead.

This long May Day weekend, I tried doing just that – spending some time alone to reflect and run things through my mind. While it didn’t go through quite as successfully as expected, spending time instead with the family, I managed to squeeze in that couple of hours in the wee hours of the morning when I could afford to wake up later following after.

Pretty glad that I did try, because now, I’m slightly clearer as to what I’m really looking forward to in certain aspects of my life. And I’d encourage you to do so too, just a bit of alone time to process your thoughts, think of your future and what you’re aiming for.

And this May, I’m expecting these changes to happen and I’m a little thrilled to see how things will pan out. While not everything will show so quickly – as there are some long-term goals involved as well – it’s still a good start to be expectant for the future.

Challenges to come, I’m ready to take you on and try my best. Let’s all do this together, change is coming!


Fight for the ones that you want to keep in your life.

9 12 2014


“There are strangers everywhere who we will never have the privilege of knowing and people are leaving this planet in every moment. It shouldn’t just be the holidays when we remember to appreciate the people we love. Wake up, humans. Fight for the ones that you want to keep in your life.”

“Things are always “complicated.” They live far away or they’re afraid of commitment or they’re too busy to make something work. If you care about someone, you keep them in your life. Period. If you like someone, you fight for them, every day – not just on the days you’re told you should be thinking of them. If you love someone, if they get you better than anything else, if even 2 minutes of talking to this person makes you remember how deeply you care about them, then you should never let them go. Love doesn’t know any boundaries – or it shouldn’t, anyway. Love should be the one thing in this life that happens despite everything else.”

“As we gather for the holidays, we catch each other up on our lives, how we’ve been doing, all the success we’ve been making for ourselves. It’s important to be successful in life. That’s what we all want. We want to be actors, writers, musicians, doctors, lawyers, world changers. We’re working our asses off to get there, and we’re losing people in the process. We justify it easily. We’re too busy right now. If the people in our life care about us, then they’ll stay. We’ll see them over the holidays. We’ll buy them a kick ass gift. They’ll stick by us until we’re ready for them again.”

If the people in your life are trying their hardest to stay with you and you’re not giving anything back? You’re going to lose them. Yes, we need to fight for people, we need to stick by the ones we love no matter what, but we also need to be fought for. There’s only so much indifference our hearts can take. We need to be loved right back.”

“Don’t take the people in your life for granted. Don’t stop fighting for people because you’re on your way to success and don’t want anything, or anyone, to screw up your career. Careers are always there. You can start trying for a career any day. The medical field, the music industry, the art scene – those aren’t going away any time soon. The people you have in your life – you could lose them, at any moment, if you don’t care enough to keep them with you.


The moments I’ll cherish, will you too?
Things you’ve said that should push me away, why do I still want to stay?
Is it a case of bad timing, or have you not let go of the past?
Stories you shared, felt so personal. Yet we’re both withdrawing.
Are we both afraid and thus pushing each other away?
Are we too scared of being vulnerable yet again?
Should it always be this hard?


Playing it cool, we let it drift.
Things can be simple, yet we’re always making it complicated.
Maybe it’s because we have differing goals right now.
Things are stable, we’re happy just working hard for a successful career.
Happy with just having a fun time with our closest friends and family.
That’s all we need, we think. At least for now.
But is that really the case?
Deep down, we know how we feel.
Are we avoiding going further simply because it doesn’t hurt now?
We’ll just enjoy the moment now, or so we think.
“There’s only so much indifference our hearts can take.”


Do I really know you? No I don’t.
But neither do you.
Is it worth fighting for, I ask myself repeatedly.
To be honest, I wouldn’t know.
I’m holding out, for now. For how long, I don’t know.
It’s easier to just let go, to move on.
But, there’s always a but. A nagging thought at the back of my mind.


Post inspired by Thought Catalogue’s post titled “Fight for the people you love – end of story

What ifs

18 03 2013

What if today’s your last?
What would you do?
What would you say?
Who would you want to see?
And who would you want to spend your last moments with?
What would you regret?
How would your life pan out to be like?

It was always difficult, to try to find that ultimate life goal. And if you’ve found yours, then good for you. I’m happy for you.

You know that feeling when you can’t sleep because you don’t know what tomorrow will bring? That’s how I feel sometimes.

Also because i’ve been having difficulty breathing properly whenever I lie down these days, and it made me think…

We’ll never know when we’ll go, leave this place. What if it were tomorrow?

All our life we’ve been working hard, to keep life going, to provide for the family, planning for the future generation yada yada. But if we to let slip the opportunity to appreciate the beauty of life, is it worth it?

What if tonight’s my last night, what would I do?

I’ll say out my love to my loved ones, hug them real tight and kiss them goodbye.

I probably won’t have the luxury of time to travel the world or do the crazy adventurous stuff so I’ll just imagine it for a bit.

Ring up my friends to say those last words.

Take a nice family photo.

Then go to the bed, lie down and wait. Say a little prayer, ideally holding the hands of my loved ones and drift off to sleep.

What ifs will always be present, no matter how hard we try not to think about them, fearing regret. But if we hadn’t the chance for a last minute goodbye, would we regret it?

Treasure all that we have around us, the love that fills us, the care shown to us.

It’s no use thinking what if we could turn back time, because that’s a fantasy and it isn’t reality.

Health scares come and go, but fortunately this was a false alarm. Thankful for it in reminding me to appreciate life, to be grateful for life.

Through good times or bad, remember that just by being alive, how fortunate that in itself already is. So say what you need to, what you want to, what you’ve been keeping inside for so long, to whoever it needs to be said to. Do it before it’s too late and there’s no time for regrets.


Learned helplessness

1 04 2011

Pardon this post that comes without photos since I’m typing it from my phone and so there isn’t any suitable pictures to depict what I’m trying to get across from this entry.

Basically, I’m going to share a story that I myself, just learnt today. It was from a workshop about overcoming self-perceived limits.

I’m pretty sure most would have known about the story about how circus elephants are trained. Some wonder how they can be so tamed since they are after all, so humongous and doesn’t justify how a human that is so minute beside it is able to control it, more or less entirely.

And here, the story begins.

These elephants are actually ‘head hunted’ since young, when they’re about to come into this world. Trainers would plan for the mother elephant to give birth right on top of a deep hole such that she wouldn’t be able to get her baby elephant out even with the help of other elephants. Then when the mother finally gives up and leaves with her elephant family, the trainers would step in with the help of their other trained elephants to ‘rescue’ the baby, specifically with the use of a rod/stick.

Note that the trainers would only step in when both the mother and baby elephant has given up rescuing the baby, thus making them learn about the helplessness of their situation.

Therefore when the trainers come in with the stick, the baby elephant learns that the stick is sort of his life and soul, therefore it wouldn’t dare to let go and will abide to whatever the trainers might use to ask it to do.

Obviously, we know that elephants will grow and hence they would eventually be strong enough to break free from the rod. But because of this learned helplessness, it wouldn’t dare to do so.

Of course we do know that even when the rod is there, tied to the tree, freak accidents can still happen. An example could be that a lightning struck the tree, which fell and so the elephant broke free, you get what I mean.

Similarly, we as humans form this kind of limits to ourselves too – sometimes even unknowingly. So basically, I urge everyone to reflect about this and examine if we’ve really created such a boundary to our life, whichever aspect that may be.

Yes I know, I’m speaking to myself too. But may I invite you to join me in this process of learning, discovering and daring to step into the unknown over the limits that we may have instilled ourselves? The future is unknown (just like whether 2012 will actually occur or not, given all the signs of natural disasters happening but that’s for another post another time). So let’s work together to push ourselves out of our comfort zone and beyond the boundaries that we have drawn virtually around ourselves. (:

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