World Diabetes Day was almost blackout day for me…

14 11 2016


Look at the picture again, and you’d think that everyone is smiling happily post-workout. Little would you know that I’m on the verge of blacking out, a little breathless and couldn’t stand for another minute longer. It’s much scarier in real life and words can’t really describe it sufficiently well.

And that’s the sneakiness of diabetes – seeping the hypoglycaemia (low blood sugar) and hyperglycaemia (high blood sugar) quickly yet silently into your life. 

All we can do is try our best to manage them, 24/7 even during our sleep. Frustrating at times when doing your best doesn’t mean you get the outcome you want. 

To cut to the chase, there are two things that this post hopes to achieve:

1. Awareness to Diabetes 

Yesterday (13 Nov) was World Diabetes Day and today is the birthday of Sir Frederick Grant Banting, who was the first physician who used insulin on humans – essentially the medicine that is keeping me alive this moment. 

But I digress. 

As in previous posts that I’ve sporadically written on this topic before, there are different types of diabetes. Types 1 and 2 – differing in its cause, medical treatment and severity. 

For simplicity, here’s one article to get you started to understanding what it’s like to live with it – not too different from healthy individuals. 

In summary, not all diabetic patients are diagnosed because they’re fat, they’ve eaten too much sugar, or inherited it from their ancestors. Suffice to say, some get it while pregnant, some due to a virus attack on their pancreas, others due to obesity-related or age-related issues etc. 

While it hasn’t been a problem for me to use my needles in public, there are those who refuse to do so for fear of embarrassment or being judged. My dear friends, there is nothing wrong with self-injections. In fact, it helps educate others who may not be exposed to such norms we practise multiple times daily. 

With the government focusing more on raising awareness and educating the public on diabetes, all the more we should spread the word and support the community and help others be more health conscious and prevent cases that can be avoided! 

2. Appreciating Life After Near Death Experience

It wasn’t that obvious but it certainly gave me a good scare. With black patches in my vision, lack of energy and breathlessness – something I have never experienced before – I knew that I’ve pushed myself too hard. Too stubborn to stop and treat myself before continuing on. 

And this is why I’ve learnt to appreciate life once again (the other time being the night I was sent to the A&E just before diagnosis)

With the hustle and bustle of life, sometimes we overlook the more important factors – be it family, friends or health. 

As my vision blurred and strength leaving my body, it reminded me of my loved ones. How I’ve yet to fully express my love and gratitude for the wonderful life they’ve given me. 

It’s different for everyone but let’s take some time, at least once a week, to appreciate everything and everyone around us. Be it family, friends, nature, our home and a roof above our heads, basic necessities like food and clothing, lessons we get out of life. 

Remember to appreciate yourself too – your mind, body and soul! 

It’s a long post, probably an outpouring of words after the long hiatus from random thoughts and writing. Off to look for the supermoon tonight! 🌕


Fight for the ones that you want to keep in your life.

9 12 2014


“There are strangers everywhere who we will never have the privilege of knowing and people are leaving this planet in every moment. It shouldn’t just be the holidays when we remember to appreciate the people we love. Wake up, humans. Fight for the ones that you want to keep in your life.”

“Things are always “complicated.” They live far away or they’re afraid of commitment or they’re too busy to make something work. If you care about someone, you keep them in your life. Period. If you like someone, you fight for them, every day – not just on the days you’re told you should be thinking of them. If you love someone, if they get you better than anything else, if even 2 minutes of talking to this person makes you remember how deeply you care about them, then you should never let them go. Love doesn’t know any boundaries – or it shouldn’t, anyway. Love should be the one thing in this life that happens despite everything else.”

“As we gather for the holidays, we catch each other up on our lives, how we’ve been doing, all the success we’ve been making for ourselves. It’s important to be successful in life. That’s what we all want. We want to be actors, writers, musicians, doctors, lawyers, world changers. We’re working our asses off to get there, and we’re losing people in the process. We justify it easily. We’re too busy right now. If the people in our life care about us, then they’ll stay. We’ll see them over the holidays. We’ll buy them a kick ass gift. They’ll stick by us until we’re ready for them again.”

If the people in your life are trying their hardest to stay with you and you’re not giving anything back? You’re going to lose them. Yes, we need to fight for people, we need to stick by the ones we love no matter what, but we also need to be fought for. There’s only so much indifference our hearts can take. We need to be loved right back.”

“Don’t take the people in your life for granted. Don’t stop fighting for people because you’re on your way to success and don’t want anything, or anyone, to screw up your career. Careers are always there. You can start trying for a career any day. The medical field, the music industry, the art scene – those aren’t going away any time soon. The people you have in your life – you could lose them, at any moment, if you don’t care enough to keep them with you.


The moments I’ll cherish, will you too?
Things you’ve said that should push me away, why do I still want to stay?
Is it a case of bad timing, or have you not let go of the past?
Stories you shared, felt so personal. Yet we’re both withdrawing.
Are we both afraid and thus pushing each other away?
Are we too scared of being vulnerable yet again?
Should it always be this hard?


Playing it cool, we let it drift.
Things can be simple, yet we’re always making it complicated.
Maybe it’s because we have differing goals right now.
Things are stable, we’re happy just working hard for a successful career.
Happy with just having a fun time with our closest friends and family.
That’s all we need, we think. At least for now.
But is that really the case?
Deep down, we know how we feel.
Are we avoiding going further simply because it doesn’t hurt now?
We’ll just enjoy the moment now, or so we think.
“There’s only so much indifference our hearts can take.”


Do I really know you? No I don’t.
But neither do you.
Is it worth fighting for, I ask myself repeatedly.
To be honest, I wouldn’t know.
I’m holding out, for now. For how long, I don’t know.
It’s easier to just let go, to move on.
But, there’s always a but. A nagging thought at the back of my mind.


Post inspired by Thought Catalogue’s post titled “Fight for the people you love – end of story

handling loss – mortality or relationships.

10 09 2012

handling loss - mortality or relationships.

It’s a good read about how it may hurt to suffer a loss, but also a reminder that the greatest gift we possess is the ability to love in the first place.

Changing perspectives towards relationships

15 02 2012

Divorce rates are rising.
Imminent breakups and makeups occur.
Stomps on massive PDA-ing (Public Display of Affection) appear.

What is our world becoming?

Personal observations have also further supported what I am going to discuss – the changing perspectives towards relationships.

lack of loyalty

This is probably the main reason as to why relationships seem to be taken so lightly by individuals nowadays. There could be several factors that result in this bulk effect, and if I may, discuss some of them here today.

¤ increasing affluence
As the somewhat skewed saying goes, “with more money comes more power.” And that is true to a certain extent, at least in the main topic here. This is probably also linked to my next point.

¤ independence
With more wealth and hence power, the individual is more likely fully able to support oneself financially. Gone are the days when men were the breadwinners and women had to rely on them for financial support. Inevitably, more independence means that individuals have the option to choose ‘better’ partners in terms of heightened expectations and prospects. Even if they may be in a current relationship, the lack of loyalty + the availability of ‘better options’ out there, basically potential partners with characteristics more towards their ideal ones, resulting in more relationship makes and breaks.

the loosely used term
Probably due to the above factors, it leads to the casual use of the term relationships. Individuals today tend to place less and less emphasis on the ‘original’ meaning of relationships. Being together doesn’t guarantee the existence of love for each other, or maybe promises and vows made are no longer as strongly adhered to as before?

I don’t know. Call me traditional or conservative, but I choose to believe that relationships are more than love itself. It’s the promise to love the person as a whole – flaws or not, to cherish each other, in sickness or in health. Don’t those words mean anything anymore?

It’s even more disheartening to know if kids are involved. The most innocent party of all.

They have to grow up in incomplete family structures, and more often than not, it affects their perceptions towards social issues. Sometimes the more warped an environment they grow up in, the more screwed up their growing years will be like, generally.

Valentine’s day just passed, and I hope that other than celebrating the occasion, may it be a reminder for all of us to treasure our loved ones and those around us.

Even if things don’t work out, be glad that you’ve tried and given your all. Trust that there is always someone out there waiting for you. Despite all, at least there’s me here to love you to the best of my ability.

Cheers (:

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